Doing this weeks Asciepius exercise brought up many emotions and memories for me. The person that layed on my mind was my mother, who passed away 14 years ago, when I was too young in my opinion to deal with something so intense. I've struggled with this loss since it happened. I was able to go back to the many great memories I have of my mother. I was also able to remember exactly why I've struggled with he loss for so long. I went back to the moment in which I remember sitting in my living room listening to her talk, and thinking to myself that I had so much to learn from her. It was great to look back to the many good memories but in the end I was left feeling sad.
What the saying " Once cannot lead another where one has not gone himself" means to me is to make sure you are able to heed your own advice before you give others advice. If you are not able to follow your own advice how do you expect others to take you seriously. I believe many of us have been guilty of this some time or another. We are very quick to give advice to other people, however sometimes that advice is easier said than done.
It is so interesting how these different guided meditations affect us. It sounds as though your experience with this exercise helped you to break through some barriers and you may possibly be able to resolve any loose ends emotionally pertaining to your mother's passing. As for myself, I ended up envisioning Gandalf from "The Lord of the Rings" once I realized that the person I originally began to focus on did not have a calm, quiet mind. This lead to a triangle of Gandalf sharing his wisdom and peace with the two of us. I hope you are able to grow from your experience with this and gain acceptance.
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